Truth is, i'm standing in my own way
Soooooo…
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And I felt a strong need to share my reflection in an entry today. I know, I know it’s been almost an entire year since my last post, but the beauty of this being my blog and my birthday is I can do whatever I want, whenever I want haha. Let’s all be happy I am choosing to share my reflection with you lovely people who care.
It has been 339 days (crazy how the year flew by) of transitions, challenges, successes, connections, intentions, manifestations, evolutions and a million little things in between. If I had to describe this year in two words it would be continuous clarity. I’ve continued to learn so much about who I am and closing the gap of who I am and who I ultimately want to be. Overall, that right there is a beautiful thing and I have to say I am proud of my journey thus far.
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My blessings have been endless and I’m extremely grateful I’ve been able to recognize that day in and day out. I’ve spent time stretching myself to some extremely uncomfortable places the past few years. I’ve spent time shifting, refocusing, combatting fear and owning my truth to degrees that even I would have never believed.
However, I’ve also realized that with as much progress as I have made I am still short changing myself (crazy I know). I had a moment a few days ago where I was sitting on my couch and thinking to myself that I still get in my own way sometimes. Obviously it is not intentional, but with all this growth I am doing it is hard not to notice the subtle ways I’ve been 1) not giving myself enough grace and 2) not being more confident in my own potential to ultimately take some necessary next steps.
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I know this sounds crazy especially to those of you who know me, shoot it sounds crazy to me too, but that’s the thing with growth and clarity – we have to be willing to look inward and acknowledge the truth in whatever form that looks like. Now that I have identified that truth all I can do is work to do better for myself. I am fortunate to be able to see another day, another birthday and another chapter of literally owning my magic and continuing to tap into it in some amazing ways. I’m excited for 2020 and if I do not get another entry up within the next few months just know that I will not be short changing myself anymore. The biggest risk I will take in this next chapter of my life is to GET OUT OF MY OWN WAY AND SHINE EVEN BRIGHTER.
